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5th Bite is freshly in love... and then some

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[Rin can't believe his luck. Two weeks ago he was cursing his fate and now he has been rewarded with this joy. With someone to hold, to kiss, to love. It's a complete 180 from two weeks ago and it shows in his mood. He's grinning and laughing everywhere he goes, feeling mischievous and in a good mood. Suddenly he's nice and practically beaming at everyone he talks to, probably leaving not a few people confused. He's almost skipping on his toes and his game is better than it had ever been and he has a newfound motivation in lessons. Except... his grades haven't maybe changed as much, like he doesn't learn as much as before, but anyone who has seen him with a certain white haired Ravenclaw student can probably guess he's got better things to do.]

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[Except there's one catch. That whitehaired Ravenclaw was a boy. And though Rin tried not to promote it too much, he isn't hiding it either and answered honestly to everyone who asked. Yes, he and Seth were dating. Usually people were okay with this... But not always. Rin has long ago learned that what other people said, or thought is by no means important, but that didn't mean it couldn't hurt him... or worse. His usual reply to any form of discrimination is a flash of sharp teeth, a warning growl and a seethed 'Get lost', but some people are just really resilient to that. Especially the ones who may not be taller, but had twice as broad a chest as him.]

What you a pansy?

[Is what he would face at least thrice a week, pushed against a wall and surrounded, and that is still the better case. He'd fight back, but usually he's gravely outnumbered.]

Toiletts, yet again

[Since encounters like that begun to happen in quite the frequency, Rin started to carry some make up with himself to be able to cover up the bruises. Taking a trip to the nurse's office each time it happened would be like begging for the teachers to get mixed up in this and he doesn't want that.

Thus, usually after such an encounter, he can be see hurrying to the nearest rest room, covering a part of his face, or keeping his head down, hair falling into his face, concealing it. This heightens the risk of bumping into someone, of course, but if he does, he just hurries further, not wanting to deal with the various looks of pity, or contempt.

Once in front of the mirror he washes his face and dibs the marks gently with powder, staring at his reflection in the mirror with an angry look, tears shining in his eyes. But these tears he doesn't let fall. He keeps telling himself that they're not worth it, that this is the kind of situation that - as a certain friend would tell him - can be solved with punches, no need to loose precious fluids over it. But it still hurts. Hurts to be hated for who you were... Rin wonders what was so wrong about loving someone, but he can't find an answer, or a reason. So he just bites back the hurt and let's the anger contain in, as he quietly sneers at his reflection.]

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Hey!

[ Of course being called that ticks her off, but the last thing she needs is Rin to fight back, this might not work otherwise...!

No, she needs a calmer demeanour back, so she takes a deep breath and approaches casually, trying to put on the sweetest smile she possibly can. God she's scared though, she knows she's not immune to their wrath now that she's involved and she has to plan what she says very carefully from there.

Hopefully, what she says will be alarming enough when paired with that smile of hers, knowing that it had to look completely unnatural on her. ]

I'm pretty sure I've seen you all on the Slytherin Quidditch team, right? Now, what should I tell the headmistress about why my tutor was late, especially when it seems like you guys are harassing him...? Maybe she'll get angry enough to ban you from games.

[ As if to emphasize complete innocence she appears thoughtful for a moment, letting the words sink in before that smile is back again. ]

Of course, I could not tell her and just hex you right here, be done with it. What do you think? After all, she's far more likely to believe the little girl you might try to beat up than the bullies who hurt said little girl.

[ She's so scared. If this doesn't work this could backfire so badly, but it has to... Even if it's getting harder to breathe. At least she's keeping herself from shaking for the moment, as long as the facade of confidence keeps up it should work... She has to keep up the illusion that she has all of the power here. Which, admittedly, she sort of does... ]

Edited (wasn't sure of the number so I changed it to something more general I SUCK AT NUMBERS SOB) 2016-01-26 17:30 (UTC)

Che...

[Rin growl when he hears the ape say something offensive again, but when they are actually backing off and releasing him, he doesn't say anything. He lets them leave before turning to Adela.]

That was bloody dangerous!

[ The instant they're gone her head's bowed and she has to hold onto the wall a little bit, breathing hard now that it's over. Maybe she's overreacting a little but man... ]

You think I don't know that!?

[ That's about all she can manage right that second, she's still trying to calm down because that was way too close for her tastes. God her heart's still pounding, she's shaking so much now... ]

... I couldn't just leave it alone, what the hell kind of friend would I be if I did that...

...

[Rin had no response to that, so he just looks away.]

Che.

... Just don't do it again.

[He looks at her again, only to see her slumped against the wall.]

Are you alright?! Did they hurt you?

[He rushes over to her side, to help her stand.]

I-I'm okay... I was kinda convinced that wouldn't actually work.

[ Deep breaths now, she can stand fine and she's finally calming down a little bit. There is no way she's going to admit that she was somewhere between scared and terrified, or that it was really really hard to pull that off.

Considering that not one of them actually touched her with their hands or a spell, it'd have been surprising for her to be hurt right now. ]

... You're worse off than I am anyway, we should get you to the hospital wing right...?

[She was convinced that... That was even more stupid!]

Then why by Merlin's beard did you that?!

[Rin puts his head into his hand, rubbing the bridge of his nose. Seriously. A part of him feels grateful for her standing up to him, the other part is just plain terrified by how stupid that had been.]

Listen. Unless you are convinced that your plan is gonna work - don't go for it!

[Esecially in such a dangerous situations. Suddenly RIn feels lightheaded and has to lean against the wall as well.]

I'm fine.

[He repeats for Merlin knew how many timeth that week. Really, people ought to stop asking him that.]

I couldn't do nothing either! They had no business doing that to you and I had no idea if any of the professors were nearby or not!

[ Though, when she sees him lean she frowns, sighing at him before straightening and trying to prompt him to do the same. ]

And don't lie to me about that. Even if what they were doing doesn't bother you you're bruised all over, you can at least let the nurse heal those up.

[Rin sighs, wanting to tell her how he's capable of dealing with it alone, but his will to fight her is quickly evaporating into thin air, with fatigue and ache taking him over.]

I'm fine. I'm used to it.

[It might be a while since he last got bullied, which was in second grade, but still. It's gonna pass eventually.]

All bruises heal one day.

... It's a bloody awful thing to be used to, Rin.

[ Finally she's easing up a little however, shaking her head at him with a sigh. ]

What was that about anyway, if you don't mind me asking?

Maybe.

[He knows she's right, but his pride won't allow him to admit it. He's got more dignity than this, damnit. He cringes when she asks him that and looks at the ground.]

You haven't heard?

[He thought everyone knew by now.]

It appears... not everyone is open... about my choice of relationship...

Seriously?

They're idiots.

[ It's spoken plainly, because it's really how she thinks. She has heard that Rin had been dating someone from Ravenclaw, a boy at that, but really? ]

That's your business, and they have no right to bother you about it. It's not hurting them any, so it's just ridiculous that they'd go this far over it just because you have the guts to go for who makes you happy.

[Rin grits his teeth. He knows as much already.]

That doesn't keep them from doing it though.

[Really, he's so through with it. He's so through with never being allowed to be happy, always having to deal with some kind of problem, or another. Seth is like a gift from heaven and now he' supposed to feel bad about dating him? Well fuck that! He's not going to let some asshole ruin his first love.]

I know they're idiots... But the worst thing is, they don't know it. They even think they're right.

... I wasn't kidding about telling the headmistress, if you want.

[ She's a little more unsure then, but she doesn't care look away and does her best not to show it. ]

It doesn't matter if it's just this one incident or not, they need to know it isn't all right for them to do that and the only way is if they're punished for it. It might not just be you they hurt in the future, you know?

You don't need to go that far!

[Rin exclaims. Really, what i it with people and running to teachers?! No one needs to know. He can deal alone.]

I'm gonna be fine! I'll teach them a lesson and tey won't do it anymore!

[He looks away at her next words though, because that hasn't crossed his mind.]

I...

You don't have to go that far either!

[ She's bristling a little bit, still feeling her temper rising as she continues. ]

What would you even do that's so much better than what the professors could do!? What would guarantee that they don't end up doing stuff like that again, Rin!? At least this way you have a witness who's on your side and can honestly help!

[The answer is nothing. He knows that. He knows he's powerless alone. And he hates it. Of course she's right. Even if they leave hm alone, they could go at someone else. Does he really want to bear that responsibility?

Trouble is, that RIn still doesn't want the teachers to know. Especially not his house head and his favorite professors. He doesn't want them to look at him and see a victim, he wants them to see him, their smart and talented student.

But Adela's eyes are relentless and Rin feels pushed into a corner, so he does what he always does, when he feels like that. He goe son defense.]

What's it any business of your's?! I don't want your help! Just leave me alone!

Because I consider you a friend, idiot! It's my business because it hurts you!

[ After a second she pauses, more than a little surprised at herself. Did she really just say that?

Granted, she's said it earlier but... Huh.

She tries to shake it off after feeling like she's let it hang too long, instead trying to pedal herself back a step. ]

Call it me being selfish if you want, but you're loony if you think I'm not going to try and do whatever I can to help, all right?

[Rin's eyes widen at her words and instantly he feels sorry for leashing out. Her words touch something deep in him and there's the familiar iron squeeze in his chest and pressure bhind his eyes and before he can stop it he's crying. He manages to hide his face in his hands, before it breaks out of him, but it's still clear as day.

Damnit. And he told himself he wouldn't cry over this, that it wasn't worth it. And in front of his friend too. Though, she saw him sad already... but still. He hates being this weak... this broken.]

[ Oh.

Oh crap.

Her blood runs cold after a second because oh shit did she press too much!? Is it something she's said!? What's she supposed to do about it!?

Much more hesitantly she approaches, pocketing her still-lit wand as she tries to get a better look at him. ]

Rin...?

[He turns away and hides even more, shrinking into himself as she approaches.]

Stay away!

[He barks, but it doesn’t have the usual bite. It sounds more broken and weak than anything else. He hates doing this, but as much as he tries to get himself under control, he isn’t able to. Damnit, why does he have to be such a cry baby?! He has absolutely no reason to cry right now. NONE!]

[ She flinches at his tone, but rather than being scared off she gets closer. Just what is she supposed to do in this situation though? ]

Hey, I... Sorry, I guess I was kind of harsh...? [ She starts then, feeling more than a little awkward. Not that it's strange to see him crying like this (or rather she doesn't care if it is or not), but it still feels like it's her fault that he's like this. Some friend she is. ]

[No... No, please don't feel bad. Rin shakes his head, a spark of anger flashing through him and he latches onto it. He's doing it again, hurting people he's not supposed to hurt, while it's all his own stupidity. The anger he's aiming at himself is like a starw for a drowning man and it helps him pull himself out of the raging storm of his emotions and gain control over himself again.]<7mall>

It's not your fault.

[He says, his voice a little rough and still hiding his eyes behind his bangs, as he wipes his face.]

It's me who's fucked up.

You did not.

[ That he's trying to reassure her is appreciated, really! But... She takes a breath, uncertain of what else she can do but try anyway. Why is trying to be a good friend difficult anyway? ]

It's their fault, Rin. They messed with someone awesome, someone who's happy with something unconventional. Someone who's been nothing but nice to me and helped me catch up with my studies and got me into Quidditch, okay? That's not fucking up.

[ Strong language for a fourteen year old girl but shh. ]

It's... It's okay if you're upset, I'm just sorry if I'm the one who did that because that's not what I wanted to do.

No... I'm saying, that I'm the one who's pathetic.

[He sniffles one last time, the look in his eyes hardening.]

I mean, look at me! I know they're the jerks, I know I did nothing wrong, but still I can't get my shit together!

[In his anger he kicks the closest wall with all his power, ignoring the surge op paiin that shoots through his legs.]

All I ever do is whimper, whine and cry, like some bloody baby! The world ought to laugh at me! No wonder karma hates me!

Stop it!

[ AAAAAAAGH this is so frustrating! Immediately she tries to grip at his shoulder which is a little awkward because of the angle why is he so tall and whirl him around so she can look him in the eye. Yeah her temper is getting away from her again but she still feels like she can't just leave him like this! ]

The only pathetic part about this whole thing is that you're acting helpless when you're not and it really pisses me off to see you acting like you are!! Yes, you did nothing wrong, but there's got to be something you can do about it to make things right again!

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