imperturbatus | 5th Bite is freshly in love... and then some

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[Rin can't believe his luck. Two weeks ago he was cursing his fate and now he has been rewarded with this joy. With someone to hold, to kiss, to love. It's a complete 180 from two weeks ago and it shows in his mood. He's grinning and laughing everywhere he goes, feeling mischievous and in a good mood. Suddenly he's nice and practically beaming at everyone he talks to, probably leaving not a few people confused. He's almost skipping on his toes and his game is better than it had ever been and he has a newfound motivation in lessons. Except... his grades haven't maybe changed as much, like he doesn't learn as much as before, but anyone who has seen him with a certain white haired Ravenclaw student can probably guess he's got better things to do.]

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[Except there's one catch. That whitehaired Ravenclaw was a boy. And though Rin tried not to promote it too much, he isn't hiding it either and answered honestly to everyone who asked. Yes, he and Seth were dating. Usually people were okay with this... But not always. Rin has long ago learned that what other people said, or thought is by no means important, but that didn't mean it couldn't hurt him... or worse. His usual reply to any form of discrimination is a flash of sharp teeth, a warning growl and a seethed 'Get lost', but some people are just really resilient to that. Especially the ones who may not be taller, but had twice as broad a chest as him.]

What you a pansy?

[Is what he would face at least thrice a week, pushed against a wall and surrounded, and that is still the better case. He'd fight back, but usually he's gravely outnumbered.]

Toiletts, yet again

[Since encounters like that begun to happen in quite the frequency, Rin started to carry some make up with himself to be able to cover up the bruises. Taking a trip to the nurse's office each time it happened would be like begging for the teachers to get mixed up in this and he doesn't want that.

Thus, usually after such an encounter, he can be see hurrying to the nearest rest room, covering a part of his face, or keeping his head down, hair falling into his face, concealing it. This heightens the risk of bumping into someone, of course, but if he does, he just hurries further, not wanting to deal with the various looks of pity, or contempt.

Once in front of the mirror he washes his face and dibs the marks gently with powder, staring at his reflection in the mirror with an angry look, tears shining in his eyes. But these tears he doesn't let fall. He keeps telling himself that they're not worth it, that this is the kind of situation that - as a certain friend would tell him - can be solved with punches, no need to loose precious fluids over it. But it still hurts. Hurts to be hated for who you were... Rin wonders what was so wrong about loving someone, but he can't find an answer, or a reason. So he just bites back the hurt and let's the anger contain in, as he quietly sneers at his reflection.]

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Then what am I supposed to do, just silently take it?!

[Rin sneers, clenching his fists.]

I tried that once already, didn’t serve me!

[Twelve year old him had been a good, nice boy, who knew nothing about defending himself. At least now he knew how to punch back.]

Who said anything about silently taking it?

[Seriously, what did you take him for?]

You just stand up for yourself by using there own weaknesses. Cowards like that bully and hide in the shadows, however they have weaknesses of there own. You simply find that out and use it against them. They will leave you alone after that.

[It helped that his partner had been bullied before and knew what they would be like.]

And do you know why they would leave you alone if you do?

[Huh…? Using their own weakness… That honestly hadn’t occurred to Rin. But that’s actually a good idea, for a change, among all the shitty ones people had. He’s just have to find out what their weakness was…]

Because no one likes to feel weak.

[Rin answer quietly, feeling stupid. He knows it quite well. The feeling of being powerless and weak.]

Exactly. Though bullies are ultimately weaker than the person they pick on.

[He has a huge dislike for people like that.]

That is my thought though. I just cannot stand such people.

Yeah tell that to my bruises.

[Rin snorts at the guy. Really, chivalrous speeches like that was why he couldn’t stand most Gryffindors. Weaker or not, it doesn’t change that he’s still hurt and that it’s still happening.]

Unless they realize that fact, it’s pretty irrelevant who’s weaker and who’s stronger. Pretty speeches like that don’t change anything.

[They don’t exactly make him feel better either. He’s usually one for cheesy stuff, but today he doesn’t have the capacity, or understanding for it.]

Just because they hit doesn't mean they are 'strong'. It's stronger not to retaliate than to use power to intimidate because they can't stand to look at themselves in the mirror.

[He places a hand behind his deck for a moment.]

I just know the way to make them realize it. But it's not for me to do. I can stand there, but it's ultimately up to you.

I know that.

[Rin gives Yami a look.]

But they don't, so it's all the same. Those are just pretty words to make losers feel better.

[At the suggestion his ears perk up and suddenly he's paying full attention to the guy now.]

Oh? And how?

I honestly don't think you do.

[As for how... He might not like what he says.]

For one to grow a pair. No reply of 'well I can fight them so I have a pair of balls. That's not having a pair at all. That's just choosing the cowards reaction. Secondly, actually try and understand them. Understand why they are doing what they are doing. People like that make it way more obvious than they like to believe. Then simply use that. If you know about there weakness they are most likely to leave you alone than violence will.

If you aren't good at figuring that out, that is why I am there.

[Rin gives Yami a look that's clearly saying 'Are you crazy?' when he hears that. That? That's it?!]

Say, are all Gryffindors such idealists, or is it just you? I don't want to understand them. I want them to get lost!

[Seriously? Seriously?! He feels like he's walked into one of those 90's cartoons where all protagonists say to all the villains "Let's stop fighting and be friends!", because this is just insane. In what century did this guy live?]

Do you think I was saying it as the whole get along type deal? No understanding them as in using it against them because all bullies do it for a reason. You just understand to pick at it. Does everyone in Slytherin jump to conclusions?

[Because even he knew everyone being friends was not possible. There were bad people out there and like fuck he would consider trying to get along, unless there was some underline reason.]

[Oh. He meant it like that. Rin looks away because it seems his temper got the best of him again. He never really thought about why bullied picked on people, he just took it as a given thing.]

Beats me. Because they’re a couple of douchebags?

[He offers, but really, no idea. He’s not much into the entire ‘bad childhood’ kind of psycho drama, because honestly? Get over it. He didn’t have the best of childhoods either, but that didn’t mean he went and got on people’s cases because of it.]

[He shrugged sightly. It wasn't exactly true, but maybe it was part of it.]

Doubt it, okay maybe there are some that will be born to be....whatever that word means, but usually that isn't all there is to it. Bad childhoods, abuse can be another factor I think, even denying who they are can be a factor. For all I know that's why they pick on you.

[‘Whatever that word means’? Seriously? What century was this guy from? But what he says last makes Rin actually laugh. Denying who they are, oh yeah, Rin can really see that one. Riiiight. Not that he denies the possibility, but the mental image of those apes suddenly admitting to being gay and flirting with guys is what does him in.]

Oh that’s rich! I’d really love to see that!

[Yami was quick to look confused. He had no idea what he thought was so funny or why he said what he said.]

What's... so funny?

[Rin waves his hand, to wave it off. He realizes he must look kinda mad, but it’s too priceless.]

Nevermind.

[Well, at least that cheered him up.]

Thanks dude. Needed that.

Needed what exactly?

[He knew laughing was a good thing at least.]

I guess if it was the laughing this then... your... welcome I guess.

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