imperturbatus | 5th Bite is freshly in love... and then some

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[Rin can't believe his luck. Two weeks ago he was cursing his fate and now he has been rewarded with this joy. With someone to hold, to kiss, to love. It's a complete 180 from two weeks ago and it shows in his mood. He's grinning and laughing everywhere he goes, feeling mischievous and in a good mood. Suddenly he's nice and practically beaming at everyone he talks to, probably leaving not a few people confused. He's almost skipping on his toes and his game is better than it had ever been and he has a newfound motivation in lessons. Except... his grades haven't maybe changed as much, like he doesn't learn as much as before, but anyone who has seen him with a certain white haired Ravenclaw student can probably guess he's got better things to do.]

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[Except there's one catch. That whitehaired Ravenclaw was a boy. And though Rin tried not to promote it too much, he isn't hiding it either and answered honestly to everyone who asked. Yes, he and Seth were dating. Usually people were okay with this... But not always. Rin has long ago learned that what other people said, or thought is by no means important, but that didn't mean it couldn't hurt him... or worse. His usual reply to any form of discrimination is a flash of sharp teeth, a warning growl and a seethed 'Get lost', but some people are just really resilient to that. Especially the ones who may not be taller, but had twice as broad a chest as him.]

What you a pansy?

[Is what he would face at least thrice a week, pushed against a wall and surrounded, and that is still the better case. He'd fight back, but usually he's gravely outnumbered.]

Toiletts, yet again

[Since encounters like that begun to happen in quite the frequency, Rin started to carry some make up with himself to be able to cover up the bruises. Taking a trip to the nurse's office each time it happened would be like begging for the teachers to get mixed up in this and he doesn't want that.

Thus, usually after such an encounter, he can be see hurrying to the nearest rest room, covering a part of his face, or keeping his head down, hair falling into his face, concealing it. This heightens the risk of bumping into someone, of course, but if he does, he just hurries further, not wanting to deal with the various looks of pity, or contempt.

Once in front of the mirror he washes his face and dibs the marks gently with powder, staring at his reflection in the mirror with an angry look, tears shining in his eyes. But these tears he doesn't let fall. He keeps telling himself that they're not worth it, that this is the kind of situation that - as a certain friend would tell him - can be solved with punches, no need to loose precious fluids over it. But it still hurts. Hurts to be hated for who you were... Rin wonders what was so wrong about loving someone, but he can't find an answer, or a reason. So he just bites back the hurt and let's the anger contain in, as he quietly sneers at his reflection.]

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Suspended, I guess if your defending yourself, but that's still not a good thing to have on ones record.

[Since he was pretty sure those were a thing here and would be permanent.]

True they might, but they might not as well. At least with a teacher it gets done sooner than later.

[Rin sighs.]

I just don't want people to know.

[He hated seeing the pity. He didn't need it. He wasn't some kind of helpless kid, not anymore. He could deal with t his alone!]

Technically teachers won't spread what happened. it stays within closed walls unless portraits are feeling chatty.

[Which he assumed a teacher would never go to a room where there would be one.]

So having one person know isn't that bad. But I guess until then covering up helps but you are doing it wrong.

[Rin stares into the sink, knowing what Kaoru said was true, but still. It’s not whether they tell or not. By now he’s probably hot topic number 1 so it’s not like much harm could be done there.]

It’s not that. It’s the way their look changes, when I tell them. I don’t want that.

[He’s not some poor little victim and he doesn’t want to be viewed as such.]

Why don't you? Wouldn't it just be a worse look when they find out later on?

[He didn't get it at all. Then again, Kaoru was the type to keep things to himself but that was always what he was use to. Just him and his brother.]

I get not wanting it, though but with something like this, not much you can do about it.

Edited 2016-01-28 08:47 (UTC)

Not really. [Rin mumbles.] When they find out later on they’re upset. When I tell them, there’s pity. I’m not someone who needs pity!

[He shakes his shoulder.]

I’ll fight back and they’ll get bored of it eventually. Bruises will heal too.

Very much doubt it if that is actually what they want. You could be encouraging them to keep it up.

[Not that he would truly know what it was like. Sure he had people talk about him behind his back, but he never cared and well... he still didn't.]

[Rin doesn't say anything, just keeps powdering his face. Honestly, he doesn't know either, he just doesn't feel like talking about it. To anyone. A voice inside him tells him maybe he should, but he refuses to listen to it.]

All bad passes one time. That's just how it works.

[He finally says, but even then he knows it's not alway so easy. If it is true, then why would he work so hard to be an auror?]

You mean over, and not necessarily. Physically yes, but mentally. It's always there.

[He would know that more than anyone. As he looked at the mirror.]

Your using to much, it's going to be obvious your wearing make up.

[Fucking damnit why did the guy always have to be right?! Rin almost slams the powder case down, but that would mean getting another one and he's not quite sure when he'll get to Hogsmead.

He wipes at his face, trying not to think to hard, because the more he thinks, the more pissed off he's at himself. He feels like such a failure of a human being sometimes, that it's almost comical.]

It's not like I can do much. Even if I go to a teacher and they stop beating me, they won't stop looking down on me. I have to do this myself, or else nothing will change.

Ah, so your one of those who thinks they have to do everything themselves, right? Believe me, I get it, but at the same time you'll just end up pushing away people.

[He thought about it a bit longer really. He knew it was wrong to do, even though he and his brother had done it for years, putting it down to people being stupid, which sometimes he was pretty sure he was right on with people.]

Besides to make a change you need to be the change. So using violence won't actually be a decent change.

Edited 2016-01-30 10:26 (UTC)

[Pushing away people... Yeah, that happened a lot. He knows he needs to stop doing that, but he can't just always rely on someone to help him. He has to know he can do it alone.]

I can't run to a teacher every damn time this happens. They won't be always available.

[Especially not when those apes decided he was in for a round.]

I need to show I can defend myself.

Then tell me something... What do you want to do when school is over?

[He leans against the sink, looking away from the mirror for the meantime.]

[Huh? How does that come into this?]

Wanna train for Auror. Why?

Aren't Auror's people who would need to ask for help should they need it?

[Yes, he is getting to a point here.]

Actually, it’s usually the Aurors who help others… And they have to be able to depend on themselves...

[But he has a hunch where Kaoru is heading with that. There was all that stuff about teamwork and he knows, because he does play Quidditch and he is pretty big about teamwork. And he supposed before you got killed, it was better to call for help.

He sighs.]

Fine, fine, I get it. I’ll tell someone before it gets out of hand, there, satisfied?

You make it sound like your basically going to let it carry on to a point?

[Sure he got wanting to do things alone, he and his brother did. But it was for a completely different thing. He at least had his brother.]

[Rin stares into the sink.]

It’s nothing serious yet. Just a little steam in the student body, that needs to deflate. I don’t want to blow it unnecessarily out of proportion.

Uh huh. Sure.

[He checked himself in the mirror briefly before he turned around and started to head toward the door.]

Not much else I can say.

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